I love you

I crawl onto my bed and curl up into a ball, I dont deserve you, you are the kindest most generous person , her biggest crime was making me feel human, i should just walk away, walk into the distance and never looked back but you wouldnt let me every time i tried you would hold me down and make me feel, wanted, anything. you hold me so tight i could feel you breathing and I would just breath you in like you were the purest oxygen, I was nothing before I met you just drfting from place to place, a ghost, you gave me life and it fucking hurts. before I could just walk away I didnt have a place in the world but you seen through it and it planted something in me, I didnt even know who i was but you seen it, you seen the good in me you made me feel good.... about me. I didnt deserve it and no matter how many time I pushed you away you stuck by me I used to hate you for that but now i cant live without you, you pushed so hard, dug in so deep that you  became part of me, it felt like someone was turning oxygen into gold. eventually we met and I knew the second i seen you I'd never let you go, you have the most beautiful eyes, they were deep like the ocean I could have drowned in them, and when I looked deep into them i felt like I was home for the first time in my life I felt like I was home. you look so sad sometime and it drives me mad, i want to take everything that hurt you and kill it, sometimes you drive me mental like when you cant sleep and your only way to unwind is to tickle the shit out of me, but i put up with it because it makes you smile its worth it just for that :) eventually we got married and Im looking at the ring we both spent ages choosing and Im still in disbelief that we're married, and I thank god I got the chance to spend the rest of my life with you, because it was enough to just to know you. your so beautiful in the mornings, you just lay their happily sleeping you never catch me smiling at you, every day for 5 years and Im still doing it, because i love you more than life its self and if you ever need to know why I love you, you just need to read this.

naomi I love you x